Anyone ever experience pain during breakthrough?

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Hi people,

SWIM had quite the experience on some white freebase dmt. He felt intense unbearable pain at the hands of some entity. Anyone else have an experience like this?


SWIM will explain: SWIM sat down on his sofa in his room with his girlfriend sitting opposite him on the bed. He cooled his jitters and took three mighty blasts on his VG. Blast 3 was the most unusual as it seemed to change everything. It felt like concave things going convex if anyone can relate to this binary positive-negative shift. Anyway what struck SWIM as most odd was that there was no chrysanthemum just red stars on a black background and then BLAM! SWIM was in a place that looked NOTHING like any of SWIMS previous dmt experiences. Normally that realm is too bright for SWIM...almost impossible to look at...swirling geometry and celtic/egyptian/mayan themed visuals. Thing is SWIM has met entities within this space. Like praying mantis transformers but they seemed to be made of the same substance as the mayan-geometry.

SWIM had one experience where one of these creatures put its hands inside SWIMS face and he felt the most profound peace and joy. A couple times after that doing DMT SWIM had the same feeling this creature gave him. Most of the time SWIM laughs and smiles and knows things while in and coming out of hyperspace. But this time was different. The realm HAD geometry but was NOT made of it. It was SOLID. Very Neon. But like supermario in terms of colour scheme-blocks of primary colour with none of the shifting detail. There was no shades or gradients in these colours just flat blocks. Orange and white honeycomb tiles and lots of RED-red bricks. However, despite this strange place the most unnerving painful and terrifying thing was the entity. It was like she was sitting about sunbathing or something -legs crossed sitting on an object SWIM couldn't discern. But as soon as SWIM materialized she was upon him. You couldn't snap your fingers in the time it took her to cross the room. She litterally flew at SWIM arms outstretched, gliding across the floor upright like some horrid clockwork toy. Her face was white like alabaster...I think it was a mask and she had a white skirt on and boots but she moved like a ballerina with great poise. What happened next was similar with what happened with the mantis...

A quick aside: SWIM's always been an inveterate chemical experimentor and until last night had a real pinch of salt attitude to the entity and extra dimensional idea. He's never been into spirituality/religion but what was fucking weird about last nights trip was that he felt his chakras open up like cd's ejecting from his body. It started at the base and rose up through his body with a feeling of activation like a heavy floodlight clicking on for each chakra chunk, chunk, chunk, chunk, chunk, chunk, chunk, boom. This was before she touched him but Swim can't be sure when it happened precisely -it seemed to happen on arrival. To me this is an odd one. To repeat SWIM is not religious/spiritual. He's sensitive and respectful of other cultures and ideas. But doesn't believe personally in Chakras. YET HE FELT THEM...


Anyway when she put her hands inside SWIMS head it was unendurable. His face shattered like glass. Acute pain in its extremities e.g nose, eyebrows, cheek bones, chin etc. Felt like diamonds of pain. SWIM thinks his whole body shattered but cannot be sure. Whatever she did it felt like a violation. IT HURT. There were geometrical images at this point, all containing her but with hands flicking buttons inside SWIMS head. She was in SWIM and it hurt. It was weird though because it was very similar to the mantis because when he put its hands in SWIM the trip became him e.g never ending super repeating mantis journey. The same happened with this jester chick as soon as SWIMS face broke there was a huge hexagonal wheel in front of him divided into segments all containing this jester. SWIMS mind literally screamed 'make it stop' -he thought he was being killed, tampered with, being changed, something bad- and broke contact by opening his eyes. But there was little change to his visions upon opening his eyes. He wasn't in plain old candyland. He'd brought half of the jesters land with him (on his left) and could still feel her. On his right his girlfriend was still on the bed...albeit with a dark blue face and a fiery golden orange light surrounding her. Time felt frozen the air was blue and the walls were dissolving in the gust of some incredible wind. DMT space -the geometry was on the floor, the walls and in the air. SO much light! SWIMS sense of this was compounded by the fact that his girlfriend didn't seem to notice him waving at her-headphones on lol-...truly like one of those dreams where you scream and noone hears you...SWIM clicked his fingers, slapped the table and croaked O.D, O.D all to no avail. Turns out she was worried sick but SWIM was tripping so bad she looked like a tropical fish and he had no idea she was even talking! Also weirdly she's an arachnophobic. We recently took mescaline. She had a bad experience involving spiders. Behind her head at this moment that SWIM tries to maintain his fragile sanity there is a giant spider made of blue and yellow rainbow light (just its head actually) spewing out rainbows that are seeming to cut a third of the room in half. Anyway SWIM finally rattled out of this gyrating ordeal as one by one things returned to normal.But afterwards -post cosmic surgery- swim felt great. Though is a little paranoid he's been electronicly tagged by an alien. o0 Anyway please share any similar experiences as SWIM is rather divided on this one. Thanks -morphos